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fucking hate it here. more later,,
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f_ck!
i accidentally deleted ALL of my goddamn photos from the last 9 months. guess i wont have all the memories………………………….
sickness. travel. disappointment.
i have been really sick lately. last week, i spent a few days in bed. what is strange about the whole thing is that i feel fine most of the time, but get caught up with coughing fits. even stranger is that these coughing fits are only in the middle of the night and in the early morning. i feel like this is all a product the last 6 months; the stress and working too hard.
i had a very significant dream last night. i am always amazed at what i learn in my dreams. i do not want to get into it, but i will only say that somehow i know things i would have otherwise not known because of my dreams. strange.
so the plan for travel this year:
spring:cali
may:philly for heps, ithaca for senior week, nyc for recording?
july:vegas for usatf level 2 coaching education, et cetera
as far as the last of the blog headline, “disappointment”…
fyi..
i am irish.
stupid web server
i dont know what the hell happened, but i restored newest gallery at scpynkeal.com. As always, you can see more of my pictures, old music, some art, et cetera on scpynkeal.com
watch out itunes>>>>>
lala.com is a new online swap meet that is “part MySpace, part Netflix and part eBay, with a virtual store containing a catalog of albums that he says now numbers 1.8 million, already more than iTunes’ catalog.” sounds like a really cool idea.
check out the mtv.com article here
Gender Roles, Hidden Agendas, Untold Love Stories ??
Top Gun was full of homoerotic innuendos. It is a commonly argued theme in film classes. Hell, I have personally sat through a few days worth of analysis and critique or gender and sexuality in film. Every one is in awe of the splendor that is Brokeback Mountain, yet the issue of the sexual taboo is far from new.
Douglas Sirk‘s 1955 “All that Heaven Allows” speaks volumes of gender roles, socioeconomic stereotypes when the protagonist Cary, a wealthy widow, falls in love with the much younger nurseryman, Ron Kirby. We see firsthand the scorn of the upperclass suburban neighborhood when they finally find something to gossip about. If we fast-forward to 2002, Todd Haynes uses the general storyline of the Douglas Sirk classic, adding a racial twist in his film “Far From Heaven”
This is getting more to my point: these films (Brokeback Mountain, All that Heaven Allows, et cetera) tell of a socially disapproved romance. I am curious in not what stories were told (Romeo and Juliet, Helen and Paris); but, rather, what romances were not told.
Why is Romeo so vexed in the preliminary scenes of the Shakespeare drama? What had really happened between him and Rosaline? It may seem strange, but maybe Juliet was simply a rebound, caught in the overwhelming emotion of a jilted Romeo. Is it possible that the tragedy is a product of youth, displaced affection, and teenage rebellion?
Jane Austen’s Pride and Prejudice is what started the whole thought process. There are so many questionable romances overshadowed by the intercourse of Elizabeth Bennett and her Mr. Darcy. Caroline Bingley is the most curious of the book, in my opinion. The way I see it, Caroline just wants to fuck everyone. I read a bit more between the lines when she tells Darcy of his sister, “I do dote on her.” The sexual tension between Lizzy and Caroline is implied (though it is very suggested in the 2005 film), and Ms. Bingley’s intentions toward Darcy is obvious. Lastly, could it be that Darcy and Wickham had an inappropriate relationship as well (or Lizzy and Charlotte, for that matter)? That would provide another explain for the mutual hatred between Darcy and Wickham.
Okay, I know I have gone a bit overboard, but I have to return to my first example: Top Gun. While the love affair between Mavrick and Iceman (or any of those fighter pilot guys) may be a constantly argued, it does not necessarily mean the implications are in fact evidence. In other words, things aren’t exactly as they seem. It is easy to kill the time with these conspiracies, but I guess we will never know. (Though, I am very curious about the real intentions of Caroline Bingley.)
this is a product of my boredom/cynicism.
cold calls it quits. name that tune…>
Too bad Cold is done with… What Cold song is this from: What’s wrong with my life today? Hint: this was co-written by Cold and Weezer frontman/Harvard University Student, Rivers Cuomo. I wonder if the Harvard University sex-centered pulication, H Bomb, has approached Cuomo regarding an article.
****hi def pron via internet protocol (IP)
VOIP, or voice over internet protocol, is one of the fastest growing trends in communication. the slow shift towards a connected world is being realized as high speed internet installations are becoming commonplace.
whats next? hi definition television that can be streamed at your convenience. mtv has had thier broadband video channel, mtv overdrive, up and running for some time now. leave it to the smut industry to push the boundaries… Entice TV is not only offering television via the internet, but television in HIGH DEFINITION.
you might ask: why porn in high definition? wired.com’s article on Entice TV explains:
High-def porn offers a level of realism that standard definition just can’t touch, promoting a more intimate viewing experience through clarity and nuance. It’s easy to fake an orgasm with big movements and lots of noise; it’s not possible to simulate the subtle skin shivers, the involuntary muscle twitches, the soft puffiness of a woman’s nipple at the peak of her arousal, a small batch of goose bumps in a delicate place.
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parents and student faculty are appalled. they did it with comic books, metal music, and marilyn manson t-shirts… of course the powers that be are going to get paranoid of the brainwashing abilities of the new and the hip.
online social networking sites like myspace.com and facebook.com have undergone increasing criticism. while the precautions should be taken to prevent incidences of sexual misconduct or even another murder case (see this washington post article); there should be a line that protects students right to be a typical rebellious teen. school officials should not play parent.as far as all the hysteria that has built up, Wired.com writer Kevin Poulsin writes: “novelty makes news and new technologies tend to pick up and draw new attention to old problems that never went away”. people tend to fear the unfamiliar. it is as simple as that. the problem here is not the addition of a communication medium; but, rather, the uneasiness that comes with the lack of parental control and censorship. the article goes on in saying:
Teens are doing this on the internet, in part, because there are fewer public places they can claim as their own, and safety-conscious parents are more reluctant than past generations to let their kids go out into a real world unsupervised.
you can read the whole wired.com article here. mtv.com has a more recent article here.